Pity Party

Feel free to ignore me.  This should be brief.

Sometimes the noise in my head is too much.  I don't question myself all that much - not because I think I'm all that and a bag of chips - but really - if I screw something up... I can usually fix it.  Or, well, chalk it up to lessons learned or whatever.  I'm not a worrier, or an "oh woe is me" girl.

But, I'm sorta bummed out.  Big project at work fell through.  And day 1 - I was bummed about not getting it, but ok with it.  Day 2 - I start wondering, if someone else had done it, would we have lost it.  Was it something I could have done better, didn't do at all, or should have just done differently. 

I hate this.  I really really hate this.

So, the noise in my head is loud, and I don't like the voices up there much right at the moment.  They aren't nice and make me want to sit in a dark room and eat chocolate, and chocolate ice cream, and drink something. 

Please continue with your regularly scheduled lives - the pity party will conclude as soon as I shut the noise down in my head.  It just may take a bit.

I wonder what day 3 will be like...