in a land far, far away... lived a snarky, sarcastic chic named "ME" And in this grand land, I open my mouth, and say things I really probably shouldn't. I think they're funny. They are almost always irreverent, usually not politically correct, but, always make people laugh. I HAVE a filter between my brain and my mouth - I simply choose not to use it most of the time.
Also in that land, there lived a quiet, dependable person that everyone assumed was totally "with it" and put together. She directed things, she organized things (not herself - because if you could see her desk, you'd scream) but she could plan a party in minutes, she can put together an informational packet about her company with one arm tied behind her back. She did what was expected of her, and followed the rules. Her name was "ME"
I think I'm experiencing multiple personalities.
I put up a good front - I take on more than I can handle to keep that front intact. For goodness sakes, I was a ROOM MOM this last year. Seriously, have you MET ME? A room mom? Do I look like a room mom to you? A room mom is supposed to have nothing better to do than make cookies and walk around and hug children all day. STOP. Don't crucify me for stereotyping... you just read that thing about choosing not to filter and you kept reading anyway... I know that it isn't really the case, that there is no such thing as a mom with nothing to do - but I had in my head the idea of a room mom was someone who wasn't, well, wasn't ME.
Someone told me yesterday at work that "I obviously knew what I was doing, so this task should be easy for me." I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Seriously, have we met? What part of me says, "Oh, yes, insurance calculations, I've got that covered, next would you like me to scrub in for that brain surgery?" (Only if I get to stand next to McDreamy)
So, I'm thinking, have I been faking this front for so long it's starting to stick? Or am I really just moments away from cracking? And wouldn't it be funny to watch? Similar to the Wizard of Oz... I'm not the giant head, I'm really just a shy, usually terrified I'll screw something up, can't say no, yeah sure I can do that, OH CRAP how am I going to do that, WAY less self confident than I pretend to be, but, don't look at me, look at the big giant head that is there in front of you - that's the ME you want to see anyway, right? I wrote this some months ago but never published, I think it's worth publishing.. :-)
Also in that land, there lived a quiet, dependable person that everyone assumed was totally "with it" and put together. She directed things, she organized things (not herself - because if you could see her desk, you'd scream) but she could plan a party in minutes, she can put together an informational packet about her company with one arm tied behind her back. She did what was expected of her, and followed the rules. Her name was "ME"
I think I'm experiencing multiple personalities.
I put up a good front - I take on more than I can handle to keep that front intact. For goodness sakes, I was a ROOM MOM this last year. Seriously, have you MET ME? A room mom? Do I look like a room mom to you? A room mom is supposed to have nothing better to do than make cookies and walk around and hug children all day. STOP. Don't crucify me for stereotyping... you just read that thing about choosing not to filter and you kept reading anyway... I know that it isn't really the case, that there is no such thing as a mom with nothing to do - but I had in my head the idea of a room mom was someone who wasn't, well, wasn't ME.
Someone told me yesterday at work that "I obviously knew what I was doing, so this task should be easy for me." I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Seriously, have we met? What part of me says, "Oh, yes, insurance calculations, I've got that covered, next would you like me to scrub in for that brain surgery?" (Only if I get to stand next to McDreamy)
So, I'm thinking, have I been faking this front for so long it's starting to stick? Or am I really just moments away from cracking? And wouldn't it be funny to watch? Similar to the Wizard of Oz... I'm not the giant head, I'm really just a shy, usually terrified I'll screw something up, can't say no, yeah sure I can do that, OH CRAP how am I going to do that, WAY less self confident than I pretend to be, but, don't look at me, look at the big giant head that is there in front of you - that's the ME you want to see anyway, right? I wrote this some months ago but never published, I think it's worth publishing.. :-)
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